I honestly never thought I would have to write on a blog to get my thoughts straight. But for once at night I’m sober and I can say what I need to.
My life is at a turning point now. I’m about to graduate high school and go on to college. No, that’s not really scary to me but this is: the only person I have been able to count on in the last eight months is my boyfriend. Ever since the first day we hung out we have seen each other each day after that. He never blew me off or kept me waiting. My parents aren’t consistent and I have no friends to count on. The scary part to me is when I think about what would happen if I lost him. I could write this post to complain about things or I could just stop. And be so very thankful I’ve had someone in my life to count on and ask for guidance. Things would’ve turned out differently, and not for the better if it wasn’t for him.
I wish I could let him see this but he doesn’t like mushy shit like that.
Someone needs to show me how to deal with this shit I’ve never felt this way before